I have three friends who I’ve been close to for 20 years. In a month or so I will be starting TMS and I wanted to tell them about it. As I was talking about it I noticed the looks they gave each other that they didn’t think I noticed. It really hurt my feelings. Instead of giving each other these looks why didn’t they just ask me if they were concerned or had questions. I mentioned the looks to one of my friends when we were alone. She said that they were just concerned about me. Yes, but we just spent all this time talking about how the problem in our mutual friend’s relationship is the lack of communication and then you do the same thing to me.
At one point I mentioned that I felt like I have struggled with depression since I was a teenager.
One of my friends commented, “but you were fun to hang out with back then.”
I said, “Am I fun to hang out with now?”
She said, “Sometimes.”
Wow, strike two. Feelings hurt again.