I’ve been on the Brintellix for nearly a month. It doesn’t feel like it’s doing anything at all. I’m not having any adverse side effects but I’m also not feeling any better. I have had a few episodes with anger and I don’t get angry. I know that seems contradictory to a person with Borderline Personality Disorder but I’ve never been a person to react to anything with anger. I’m more likely to feel hurt than angry.
I don’t know if the anger and irritability is from the medication or just from stress. I’m not really sure what is me anymore and what is medication. I wanted to stop Meds to see but my doctor didn’t think it was a good idea.
I’m seeing my doc next week. I wonder if he will up the dosage. I believe it can go up to 20 mg. I’m currently on 10 mg.
I had given all my self harm tools to my therapist. I’ve been really struggling lately and today I bought a new pocket knife. I know I shouldn’t it just helps my anxiety more than anything else. It helps with the overwhelming emotions. I wish I was one of those people that could exercise my stress away but I’m a potato. I’ve tried to exercise. I suck at it. I can’t get into it, I get dizzy and light headed. I don’t know. I guess I will consider myself cured when my go to thought isn’t cutting.