I picked up my son today and he was in a full blown autism tantrum. He was destroying the room he was in, he was screaming and swearing. He saw me and flipped out even more, “I don’t want you to pick me up. I want mommy (my ex) to pick me up.” then he continued to scream. I held him and tried to distract him. It wasn’t happening.
I know I shouldn’t take it personally but it’s hard not to when you try to do so much and you just feel hated. I’m already struggling with the holidays. Both of my parents passed away when I was fairly young and I’m single. It leaves me feeling very low and unhappy. It’s such a lonely feeling. The only family I have is my brother and he spends the holiday with my ex and my kids. We don’t even speak anymore because of it.