I hate that when I become completely emotionally overwhelmed I cut. I know it’s a bad thing to do, I know it’s not healthy but it’s an addiction for me. When I start thinking about it the urge to cut just builds up until I can’t keep myself from doing it. I will tell my therapist on Friday and I should probably bring it up in group but being new to the group I’m afraid I’ll horrify everyone. It took me 25 years to tell anyone and right now only my therapist knows.
It’s embarassng and causes me intense shame. It really is just like an addiction.